Something I really want to make an effort to do this summer holiday is capture as much of it as possible. I want to be able to keep a little memory of our days and adventures together. Some days will be very ordinary and we will spend days at home but I want to remember it. After all these are my two children and they are growing up so quickly. I want to be able to look back at as much as I can and remember how special it has been.
The days I seem to enjoy the most with my children are when we are out exploring together, especially new places that we both have never been before. They are always so curious as to where we are going and what we are going to find. There is something fun about going somewhere together that you all have not been before.
I do love nature, and its definitely become more apparent to me how important it is to me as I have grown older. I spent mostly every single day outdoors as a child, and that was my ordinary everyday, and the weather in South Africa always allowed for it. But here in England you have just got to get those wellies and raincoats on and venture out regardless in the colder months because summer isn’t as long as I would like it to be. But thats okay because different seasons allow for different kinds of adventures which are still fun regardless of the weather.
Been able to get out with my two and find beautiful scenic places to explore makes me so happy. It makes me even more happier to watch them finding things and asking questions and being able to capture it too. It is so much fun and especially when I get to look back at the moments I captured and I see their little faces and poses, I am lost for words sometimes. I look at the pictures and I see how lucky I am and how much these two give me. They give me the most amazing life which I am guilty of taking for granted sometimes.
My life is all the more special because of the two of them. I want them to always know that and I tell them daily how special they are. I tell them: “You are the most special boy in the world Archie, and you are the most special girl in the world Sophia” In my world they are the most special to me and I want them to know how deeply I feel that about them always. I don’t believe you can smother or love your children too much. If anything I don’t feel like we get the chance to cuddle as much as I would like. Because they are too busy for that but that makes it all the more special and all the more needed, so I don’t mind.
It was so quiet at this place we found we could hear crickets everywhere and Archie noticed this unfamiliar sound, asking me: “whats that mummy” one hundred times over. As we were leaving a bird flew overhead and we could hear the sound of it flapping its wings in the air above us, I have never taken a moment to listen to that sound before or stopped to stare and it was quite beautiful and the children both noticed as well. We heard the soft hum of bees and that soft whistling sounds the bushes make as they wave in the wind. I was in such a happy place walking with the two of my loves along the footpath.
I stood and looked around me and thought how beautiful it was and thought about why we had come here. We had been driving and I had spotted a public footpath and asked the children if they wanted to explore. Of course they did. So I pulled up on the side of the road and we got out. We were on the country roads, you know those really tight back roads that can barely fit two cars on? Always the best places as they have so many hidden places to visit.
Mostly all the country roads here where we live have trees swooping over them almost making a cove. It is so beautiful and every time we drive on one of these roads I tell the children I need to get a picture of this. That is definitely one thing on my bucket list, to capture those beautiful ‘tree coves’ on the country lanes. They are so magical. I don’t think there is any other word for them!
Being a mother is and can be so completely overwhelming in so many ways and on so many levels. But mothering replenishes a woman’s soul, it takes us back to a place we lost though our teenage years through growing up and peer pressure, we lost the way a little. It is another way of teaching us true self awareness. I was given both my son and my daughter to encourage me to face a journey of self discovery and mastery. I was given them so that I was never alone. Sophia is me. In every way and she spurs me on to try my best and to raise her to be a strong and kind woman, one who knows her worth but does it all with a gentle heart.
Archie was given to me to slow me down and fill me up with love and with energy. He gives me this great sense of calmness, he tells me he loves me and asks for cuddles umpteen times a day but in contrast he also has this fierce and unwavering energy about him. I just cant quite put it into to words. But I know as he grows we will see this unfold through him. I see great things for him already at just two he reminds me of a strong and powerful warrior! He has some strength, and if you know Archie I think you will know what I mean. He is like a big bear both loving and fierce all at the same time. Both Sophia and Archie are opposites yet they are so similar. He is strong and she is gentle. They choose each other and I can see why. They are two little peas in a pod and they each have a gift for the other, the gift of sibling love and it is so beautiful to be able to watch it develop and to help nurture it too. Because sometimes they need a little advice on how to treat each other and how to compromise. But its not too often. Its all part of learning to exist happily in this little family of ours.