Happy 5th birthday to my Archie.
My darling boy, what a full circle we have done in the last five years. I am sat in floods of tears reading through the last five years of my letters to you and I am filled with all the deep and beautiful memories of raising you.
More so then ever this year I feel like I miss you. I feel like you have really grown up. No kisses at school, no kisses goodbye only on the odd occasion. Bye mummy and off you run. Its not really hit me till tonight getting this post ready to publish that you have grown up so much in the last year and in a good way and a sad way it breaks my heart in two.
This year you have had to do some growing up no longer my baby when your little brother came along and even before dad and I decided we wanted another baby I knew you would find it the hardest. The reason we did wait four years before having anymore children. You crave one on one from me and I can tell you miss me though you wouldn’t say.
We may live in the same home, and I cook your dinners, bath you and read to you but in between that there is the hustle and bustle of family life with the five of us, homework to be done, school to go to and chores, baby to tend to, washing, work, and clubs to attend.
So I try my best to give you what I can and I hope its enough, I hope that you feel like I always have time for you despite everything else dad and I have to do at home and work. Here is my letter to you on your 5th birthday. Just to tell you all of the things I love about you most.
Every year since Archie was one years old I have done a post to celebrate his year of life. It’s a way for me to remember as much as I can in years to come. His personality, what we got up to on his birthday, how he is getting on and to write about how much I love him.
These memories will always be embedded in my mind but mainly I am so grateful that there will be somewhere where I can pull them out and read how I felt all those years ago whenever I want. I can almost relive those moments in my children’s lives. Remember how I felt and what we were up to. I can bring it all back. (like I have just done this evening reading through old posts)
And my children will have access to this space too and that’s really special to me. To be able to give them back the feelings and magic they gave to me and my heart as they grew up. My greatest achievements in my life.
I can’t believe you are five years old Archie. You make me so proud every single day your confidence and strong will is inspiring. You are so motivated in life with everything you do and watching you grow has been one of my greatest privileges.
You get up and dress yourself everyday for School and you have done since the day you started in September this year. You absolutely love going to school to socialise and to ‘work’ as you like to refer to it. But really what you do all day is play in the mud kitchen, play football or build. Those are you most favourite things to do. You still love the outdoors so much and will spend as much time as you can out there come rain or shine.
A new hobby that you have developed this year is your love for all sport, absolutely everything, golf, rugby, football, American football, cricket. You have also started football training for you local club which you love and go to every Saturday since you started school. Your dad is very proud to take you and you enjoy going too. You have your blue youngen’s kit and you put it on first thing on a Saturday morning.
You have your nativity soon and you told us you are going to be Joseph. You are very excited for us to come watch your school nativity, as are we. This will be your first nativity in big school and it’s a very special one I still remember Sophia’s first nativity at big school.
We had a lovely weekend celebrating your birthday. Now that granny Jenny lives in wales you are very lucky that you get to celebrate your birthday twice. As was Sophia this year too. So you had two cakes and a little candle to blow out at Pizza express too. So many wishes you were able to make this year.
We took you at your request to spend your birthday money in a sports shop. I think we searched around four of them before we found the right one and what you wanted. We then took you for a lovely meal at Pizza Express. It was lovely, Arthur slept through most of it and woke up at desert for his dinner! So we all got to chat and talk about you being 5!
You also had all the family over on Friday to wish you happy birthday and the weekend before granny Jenny and both your grandads and some of our friends to celebrate your birthday too.
Archie if there is anything I could say to you now as I know you’ll read this when you are a young man, is that no matter what life brings your way, please, never change. You are one on a million.
Your good nature and your free spirit, how you can drive me crazy with how you never give up asking for something until I say yes makes you, you! You have such a good heart and that makes for an amazing young man. I love you and thank you for being who you are because you have taught me so much.
Under all of this, the way you are so confident you are also the most loving little boy and you will make an extraordinary young man one day. Follow your dreams and where you heart takes you because I know that you have so much to offer this world.
You are so curious about everything asking me things I have no idea of the answer (I don’t even think Siri or google could answer) but it’s those questions that will take you far your inquisitive nature will push you to achieve things I’m sure will change the way many people look at the world.
Dad and I talk about you a lot and how you just have this contagious buzz for life and everyday no matter what’s gone on you just love life.
So please on your 5th birthday I want to tell you to never change and keep being who you are. You are so unique in many ways and you have dad and I in awe of how clever and wonderful you are.
There is no wonder I am the proudest mummy.
Here is to an amazing year ahead for you my boy. I wish you all of the best experiences this next year.