Freedom & current thoughts

Joining in with Donna’s Ordinary Moments.

It feels like such a long time since I published a post here on my blog. We have had a lot going on here which I will reveal soon. All good things. So of course we’ve been in lockdown and I’ve had the kids home with me which has been quite a change meaning that work life balance feels non existent for me at the moment. Especially with a two year old around who needs supervision all day, it is very busy with him around and all he wants to do is explore everything.

I am really missing work. I miss most having the space and freedom to sit and work on my goals. But I know this season is just temporary and soon things will become normal again. I am personally uncertain they will completely go back to normal. But I think the new normal that comes about for all of us will be better than before. Things usually get worse first before they get better.

I feel like although we’ve been at home for over 7 weeks, I have really lost count of the weeks now, although it has been a slower pace of life it has also been so busy here at home for us. There is always something to be doing if it’s not cooking food or cleaning up the house, it’s sorting, decluttering, getting some sort of school work ready. I feel so busy even though we are at home. I feel like that has a lot to do with having a two year old. The three of them keep me really busy. I love it but equally looking forward to the respite of school whenever that may be and more freedom too.

Now although I feel like I am craving to be able to physically feel more free again, to visit a coffee shop, a garden centre or even a hardware shop, I am also fully embracing all that is right now as much as I can.

We all have so much to be grateful for. The air we breathe being one of the most important things to keep us alive yet we easily forget how lucky we are each day to be alive and breath fresh air. I will spend my time as much as I can remembering and actively practising all I am grateful for.

We have made some beautiful memories over this time. I have realised in order to have a happy home with us all here that I have had to lower my expectations of a forever clean and tidy home, of empty washing baskets and a cleaning fairy after meal times. The constant of all of it and only having two hands means I cannot always keep up with it. It has been a good learning curve for me really because I always put so much pressure on myself to keep everything clean and tidy always. I find it hard it hard still not being able to always keep up right now but again I remind myself this is just a season in our lives.

There is so much goodness in the now so much adventure to still be had, our freedom on our family walks and family bike rides have been a huge part of our lockdown time and I know will be forever a part of our memories. If anything lockdown has provided us with more bonding time, and still the perfect time to work on our goals and dreams together. I know good things are coming.

Focusing on those small things that really are big things. Thankful for fresh air, for the beauty around us, the long walks, the warmer weather. The cuddles from my children, the safety of our home, the shelter we have. Our cars so that we can do our food shop and most importantly for each other. Because I know that it is my children and my husband that have kept me going at this time.

I like to remind myself that in times like we are experiencing right now that freedom is a state of mind. Sometimes in this situation we can have thoughts of feeling trapped right where we are. But we are not. We are free to go for a walk, able to go for a food shop. We am free in our homes. It is now a time more than ever to enjoy the simple pleasures we have all around us. That’s what I am focusing on anyway. I understand so many others are in much worse situations and I am always thinking about those people and hoping that everything becomes easier for all of us very soon.

I hope you are all well and trying your best during these times to keep your mental health high and I am thinking of you all.

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2 Comments

  1. May 15, 2020 / 2:47 pm

    There really is so much to be grateful for at the moment. I hope you’re all doing ok x

  2. May 15, 2020 / 9:17 pm

    Aww that is lovely. It really is an eyeopener to being grateful for the small things x

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