At the tender age of 15, I became aware that life is not always what it seems, that there is more to what we see in front of us. In other words life is what you make it. Now at 25 I am ready to appreciate this wonderful gift of life that I have been given. By that I mean being happy, content, and trusting that even the struggles I go though are all serving me, as an experience, to better and bigger things. I’m still working on what I want those things to be, but I am a firm believer: “if you can dream it you can do it”- Walt Disney.
I take each day as it comes and try to remember on my bad days to be grateful for the day. I consciously focus on projecting a positive mental attitude and I aspire to be happy in ever single moment. After doing some soul searching and just growing up I found it. I have always being searching for enlightenment as such, but it’s not something we need to find, it’s something we need to ignite inside of us. I found, and came to the realisation that we all have the power to be enlightened right now but it’s up to us. And I love that. This rings true for many things in life like happiness, that’s a choice, so is sadness. I am so thankful that I figured this out that I choose what I want to be, who I want to be, life is not a bunch of coincidental happenings and mixed emotions you have no control over. It is exactly the opposite.
You live your life uniquely to you, I believe you choose everything, every emotion, your personality, your looks your children your husband your house. And the first place it starts is in your mind. We are connected to these people and experiences for a reason. We are here to learn and grow. Not everyone will agree with this but there is so much more I could say on this particular subject but my post would never end. So I will touch the surface.
From a very young age I have always believed without a doubt I was going to be a mum with a husband and a cosy little home. Not for one second did I doubt that because I utterly believed that is just what life is about and what happens.
And then it happened. And now I kind of realised that’s because that’s all I believed.
So now that I know it works I’m focusing on moving my life forward in other directions I didn’t necessarily think I had control over, like a career, my young self used to just think it would kind of fall into my lap.
But having two young children and being a mum with huge amounts of responsibility, alongside doing a degree, has taught me that you have to work hard for everything in life. Nothing is given to you on a silver plate. Although it can be painstaking waiting for what I want, I remind myself to enjoy the journey. That’s the best part. I Wouldn’t have it any other way because that is what makes the end result so worth it. Like Oprah said: “you can have it all, just not all at once”. Now that’s an inspiring quote.
Looking back at where I was 4 years ago, no passion, no direction, no idea, no clue at all to what I was meant to do, or what I could potentially do with my life, shows me how far I have come and has me in awe. Because each life experience I have chosen up until this point has set me in the right direction. I know where I am going, I know what my passion is, I have an idea, I have a clue and I am so thankful for that.
If you want to find your passion, first you have to find yourself, work on what you don’t like about yourself, change it, in every sense, for me it has not being a physical change to my appearance or body, but an inner, spiritual change. Getting a hold of my emotions, understanding why I am the way I am, and working on being a better person, full of kindness, happiness, and love. Because that is what I aspire to be. (Also learning to stick up for myself and say something if I want to, I have a tendency to let people walk all over me. I don’t want to be that person). And working on this, my passion in life reveals itself to me as if literally by magic.
My first passion is my children and my husband, my second passion is all children, and another passion I never knew I had until doing my degree, is writing.
So now that I have found my passions, I am gonna work on them. I would love to here your thoughts on this post. I think it is such an amazing process coming to the realisation of conscious thought, and the most important part learning to love yourself without judgement.