I want to take an opportunity to reflect on 2014 and everything it has offered me and my family. Now that we are well and truly in the New Year, 2015, I owe it to the year just past to pay some sort of tribute to everything; I truly feel I have only gained.
Before I start I want to articulate how extremely lucky I feel to have found myself and the opportunities it has allowed me this year gone. I am in a place of pure happiness and bliss, and I feel so privileged to have found this place. It feels as though I see the light but I have so much more to gain the closer I get. I know I have so much more to grow and develop in myself, but, I know I have just cracked the surface of what feels like the most exciting time of my life.
There have been many events, unexpected circumstances, and things that have been forced on me without any planning or preparation. But I know and trust everything that has occurred has being for the greater good of myself and everyone else in my life.
One thing that has profoundly changed me this year and I feel it and know it with every inch of myself is that I did my Reiki Level One. The most profound and unforgettable experience of my life, which I can honestly and openly say was life changing and has brought me literally to life.
There were many unforeseen and unexpected circumstances that drove me to the point of taking part in the Reiki Level One. At the time those experiences seemed negative, but in hindsight I have come to know they were the experiences that needed to happen to get me to where I am now. And this place is the most beautiful place. I thank the universe for bringing this opportunity upon me, for allowing me a chance at a new outlook and a new start to a better me, a more positive me, and a more happy me. I finally feel I am able to be me without any constraints or guilt, or even judgement.
I still battle against this feeling of been judged, but, unlike my past it no longer stops me from going after the things I want, and I’m not scared. Fear is not a part of the equation anymore and I am so thankful for this. Being scared of what people will think of me, how they will judge me, look at me or even hate me kept me from attempting anything I ever wanted in life. And realising this is empowering for me because I never knew how much I hide away who I really am. It makes me wonder was I ever really myself, or was I just a version of the person everyone else wanted me to be.
I have come to know that all these feelings come from and are stemmed from me; I am the creator of my feelings. I now know I was my own worst enemy, hiding myself for the pleasure of others and making myself unhappy. At least I thought I was keeping everyone else happy.
I have a new found love and exhilaration for adventure and I want to go full steam ahead in my life, whatever is meant for me, and whatever opens up to me on the path along the way. I am open, and I am ready to take on any new and exciting challenges 2015 has to offer. What a beautiful world we live in and what a beautiful gift life is. I want to hold my own world in my hands, and trust it, and take hold of it, be in control, and live for me. In turn I know that living for me, and being happy for me, and what I chose to do will have a parallel effect on the people around me, and whom share my life with me. Like good energy radiates in a room it radiates through the world. Like the smell of a woman’s perfume lingers in a room, the energies of success and happiness lingers.
I hope for 2015 to take me on an adventure of success and more self-worth and acknowledgment that I am powerful, I am me, and there is no one else like me. I want and need to have self confidence in me. I hope that this year brings me many new and wonderful friends, who not only support me but empower and inspire me to be me and lead me in the right direction. Most importantly I hope to finish my degree this June and pass well. The final push is something I am finding hard but I have faith and I know I will achieve it to the bitter end. I wish for more love and happiness and abundance in my family life, for my children and husband and of course not forgetting the rest of my family. We are all so lucky to have each other and I want these feelings to continue forever and ever, and to grow stronger and stronger. These people are my strongest supporters, my worthiest friends, and my dearest of loves, so to only grow in love with them would be my wish. I wish for their happiness as much as I wish for my own.
I know that life can throw you struggles, bad times, and hard times. But, I want to focus so much on the good that it washes away the bad. Focusing on the good the positive, and the love that surrounds me, the happiness I feel, in order to create more of these good feelings, because that it was I want. I’m sure that is what we all want.
This year just gone has taught me the true meaning of conscious thought. Being truly connected to source, to myself, having a strong intuition has helped me make many of the choices I have already made this year, and I only hope to grow these feelings of trust and acceptance in myself. I no longer want to be scared of judgement and hold back, but really let go, and let the real me come into fruition. This letter, this prayer, this wish whatever you want to call it, is the real me. You can’t fake who you really are, and these are my personal authentic thoughts.
Thank you to the universe for bringing this all into my path. For showing me my own self-worth, guiding me to love myself, heal myself and work on me. The healing work I have started on myself has made me accept who I truly am and truly start living life as me and who I am. I also want to say please keep guiding me, leading me and taking me on the most amazing and beautiful adventure that you have, because everything is starting to make sense. And I know I am only at the beginning.
I look forward to manifesting with you more and more of this beauty I have spoken about in my life and for all of my family.
You have already given me so much. Thank you for that.
Love and light to you…. If you are reading this I wish for you that 2015 be a year of great growth and abundance for you in any and every aspect of your life that you may want it.
Here is where I drew my inspiration for this post. It made me reflect on my journey, where I have come from and where this New Year is taking me. I am so thankful for stumbling across this post because it gave me the amazing boost to write my reflections on 2014 and a wish list for 2015.