My mother once said to me when I was a girl: ‘If you do anything in your life, make sure you do it for you first’. She taught me to be selfish, but not in a malicious or hurtful way, but in a way to protect myself from living a life for others rather than for myself.
It was mother’s day yesterday. My mother wished me a happy mothers day. She held me. She walked with me. Being able to enjoy my mothers company, have her present with me, while we let the cold almost icy air touch our warm hands. I was happy to have her. I was happy to hear her. She is proud of me, she loves me and she tells me always. I have no doubt as to how much. I am so lucky for this fact, as I don’t even have to question her love or her pride for me. Because it’s a bond she has so neatly, so carefully sewn throughout my life. I am grateful for that.
On mothers day, I thought about how I want my daughter to have no doubt of this too. I want to sew our bond with complete precision, almost perfectly, so neatly finishing the edges, with matching cotton, cutting the strays off, removing the pins, and ironing the finished piece for creases. And then I want to fit the final garment on my daughter myself, gently tying the belt for her, and folding her sleeves, dusting it down on her small frame, and brushing her hair gently behind her ear.
My mother once said to me when I was a girl: ‘If you do anything in your life, make sure you do it for you first’.
We had a lovely weekend, and enjoyed a beautiful walk around Knole Park. It might have been freezing, but Archie fell asleep in his Tula Carrier and Sophia was pushed around in her cousins pushchair. It was lovely to be out in the fresh air on Mother Day and be sharing it with the people closet to me. Here are some pictures of the walk.
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