Oh little girl of mine where have the years gone? Only six but still it’s seems like such a big number to me, bigger then all the birthdays before. I felt the same when you were 2 when you were 3 and four and five. Every year I have felt the same. A mixture of feeling so proud of you and so happy to see you growing up but also a sense of sadness for leaving the years behind.
You are growing up, no doubt about that and on one hand I love watching you grow seeing all the different sides to your personality. I love how we have become closer and can do the things we love together like crafting and shopping.
On the other hand I miss the newborn days. All the time I had with you. It was just you and I. I would hold you on the cold winter evenings once your dad had arrived home from work. The heating on and your small warm body curled up onto my chest. Your little head snug under my chin. I used to love kissing you and taking a deep breathe in. You smelt delicious. Your newborn smell is something that will never escape my mind.
I know now why everyone says soak up those newborn days. Because they go by so quickly. They are over in a blink of an eye. And just like that you are a whole six years old and I’m a little lost for words at just how quickly it has gone.
You are the cheekiest little lady ever. I will admit that I do find it hard to get angry at you. Even though you do push my buttons most days, generally you are a very lovely little lady who I enjoy spending my time with.
You couldn’t make me prouder if you tried. You have your moments but no matter what I love you to the ends of the earth and back again.
You are really into fashion and very much enjoy choosing your own clothes which I think is very much influenced by what your aunty Khaila wears. I don’t mind, I’m happy for you to enjoy dressing yourself. It is nice to have that independence and take control of what sits on your body. Although I do wish I could dress you in what I would like I know that it means a lot to you to choose what you wear.
You love having a little ponytail on the top of your head with half of your hair down. Which is quite funny because I used to do this hairstyle on you when you were younger all the time.
You like having the highest ponytail that I can do for school. You are very particular with your clothes and uniform it all has to be just right even down to your socks and how they sit on your toes. You can be a little messy and you don’t particularly enjoy cleaning up. I am forever cleaning up your wardrobe for you.
You enjoy YouTube and talk about it a lot you ask me a lot if you can make your own videos and I try to let you when I can. I have kept most of them and publish some within our family vlogs. I think it will be so lovely for you to watch as you grow older. I remember when I was younger how much I loved watching myself on camera. When technology was all new.
I remember mum had brought our family an old style video cam corder you know those big ones that resemble a brick!? I had done lots of filming. I must actually ask mum where these are as I would love to see them again and I am sure you would too Sophia.
You sometimes like to help yourself and make your own breakfast. Usually cereal or toast. You also have made your own school lunch before by breaking open a roll and popping some ham inside, you even wrapped it in foil. I did offer to make it for you but you insisted you could do it yourself and so I let you. You did take it into school and you did eat most of it.
You love playing with my make up and I don’t mind letting you play now and then. But sometimes I do say no as I don’t think it is good for your young skin.
You are very into board games at the moment. Especially Operation and Pop To The Shops. Which is actually so very fun for all of us as we get to spend a lot of time together playing in the evenings rather then watching telly. It is lovely for your little brother too he really enjoys board games already.
You love playing dolls and one of your favourite programs is my little pony.
As much as you are grown up in some ways you are still very much my little girl in others. I think also as you are so tall with such beautiful long legs many people think you are older then you are and expect you to act a certain way. But you are still very young and you are still learning and growing.
Thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart for another wonderful year my lovely little girl and I look forward to the next… and the next and the next.