Well it’s been a whirlwind the last three months. Here I am 13 weeks and happily pregnant. I’m at a really good stage in my pregnancy and feel very normal and full of energy which is so nice. I’m not usually a great pregnant lady but I feel good at the moment so i’ll take that.
It’s funny actually I always thought about more children but never did I dream it would actually happen. But it happened and here I am. I’m still in shock, really good shock and I feel so happy about this impending arrival on our family.
I found out on the 11th April 2017 and I was in complete shock because I was completely expecting the pregnancy test to be negative. I remember dipping the stick in the disposable cup and setting it on top balancing in the middle on the rims of the cup. Being carful to put it just right so the whole little test didn’t fall head first into the cup.
I looked and the pink dye ran fast. I left the room and went to do something else because I hate stick watching especially after having so many negatives as it was. I came back a good few minutes later and as soon as I entered the bathroom my eyes zoomed in on the stick, I saw it before I even picked it up. The two lines. So clear. I picked it up in a panic and inspected it. There as clear as day was a positive. I remember the rush of emotions. I think whenever you get a positive pregnancy test it’s a complete feeling of euphoria mixed with a little nervousness and slightly scary feelings because hey that’s it there’s a baby cooking in there.
I am beyond happy. Although it took a while to sink in. In the first few weeks I was really nervous. I thought about my life with three and I worried. But then something changed as the pregnancy went on. I started positive talking to myself. I remembered Archie would only have 6 months at home before he was at school with his big sister (I feel sad just writing that down). I realised he already goes to Preschool during the week. I remembered we are in a good routine for school in the morning. I remembered I am organised (if I try to be!) and I thought how truly beautiful it I would be to give both my children a new sibling.
Bringing a new brother or sister into a family already established is something I can’t quite describe. The way they learn about each other, protect and love each other. Their little squabbles. The way they navigate relationships, sharing, compromise and patience. For me watching this is both empowering and almost heartbreaking. A) because seeing my children happy, laughing and enjoying each other is something that makes my heart smile and especially so because they are my own Children and I have watched them grow and carried them snuggly in the folds of my womb until they we ready to see this world.
Three children. I am still in a little shock that I will have three. It means that our children will officially out number the adults in the family! I wonder how we will navigate through this new adventure. I wonder what it will be like. I’m excited and I I look forward to doing it all again with my best friend and love of my life and Sophia and Archie.
I think it will be a huge bonding experience for all of us. I’m a seasoned Mummy now this will be my third I feel a little more equipped in terms on breastfeeding and patience so I’m hoping those positive thoughts keep on coming. I look forward to allowing the bond flourish between my children.
I was very continuous when I had Archie to include Sophia as much as possible. I didn’t want her to resent her little brother in anyway. She chose his clothes, helped change his nappy, burped him for me and helped at bath time. I have always given her the role of protector and valued sister in this family. She was only three when we had him and she was so gentle and loving with him from the start. I look so forward to seeing her with her new sibling she is so excited and tells me daily that my belly is growing. I can already feel the bond we are all making with our new baby.
Introducing my two to their new brother or sister is what I am looking forward to most. I can’t wait to see their little faces as they come into the room. Moments you can’t buy and feelings you can never duplicate.
My little team I am so grateful to be adding to you. So blessed to have you all and I love you so very much. My heart is so full with this news and I promise to try my best. Little brother or sister we all cannot wait to meet you and hug you and love you. You are so wanted by each of us.