Lets be honest, sometimes motherhood can be blooming hard. I have days where I am grumpy, miserable and fed up all mixed into one for no reason.
But then you get days like today. My kids played so well together. The house was clean enough, the children were quiet enough and I was happy enough.
I sat and watched Archie play and watched Sophia do her usual, wrapping her dolls in a muzzy and placing them into a pram to push around the house. Each so cute in their own ways and each make me so happy in different ways too.
Today was a good day. I sat this evening and scrolled through my Instagram pictures. Each picture of Archie when he was tiny making me so broody. It brought tears to my eyes to see what a beautiful journey motherhood has been. I feel so extremely lucky and so grateful that Dan and I have been able to grow our family and welcome two mischievous and incredibly loving little ones into our lives.
It is true, I mean it when I say that they have made our lives worthwhile. Everything I attempt in my life is because of the two of them. They have inspired me and helped me grow into who I am today and I think they have done a fantastic job at that. They have taught me to slow down, chill out, don’t sweat the small stuff, keep moving, keep busy, be patient, let life unwind in front me, relax and be at peace. My children have given me the most beautiful perspective, one that allows me to live in the moment and make now special, make it worthwhile now rather than tomorrow.
Now I am happy. I feel accomplished, I feel incredibly lucky and successful. Successful in so many ways but mostly in terms of the love I am surrounded by everyday. My heart is full, the responsibly I bare in my hands and the strength I feel in my mind are all reminders that I have a life not only well lived in every sense, but achievements beyond anything money could buy, beyond any gift I could give another. The fullness in my heart, responsibility and strength I feel in me are witness to how very much I have and how lucky I am.
Thank you little ones for the journey you have taken me on, for the life lived together so far and for the incredibly beautiful moments you each have given me so far. I am so utterly in love with every inch of you and every moment of motherhood I go through with you by my side. My little shadows, you never leave my side and I am grateful for that.
I am grateful that you follow me around the house, even on the days when I don’t what you to follow me around the house. Yes, sometimes motherhood can be blooming hard. When I am grumpy, miserable and fed up all mixed into one. But it is these days that highlight to me how very special the good days are.
How would we know how good the good times were if we didn’t have a few bad days to remind us?