I feel like these two children of mine have grown up so quickly. I am at that stage where night times are so good, daytimes are blissful, and life is good, it makes me think about #3. I obviously want to disturb the wonderful ‘routine’ we have in place!
We have no plans for anymore beautiful children, (actually my husband has no plans for anymore children) we are happy with these two crazy ones of ours. However the thought of another never escapes my mind. Those newborn snuggles, breastfeeding, watching the sibling bond grow, feeling like superwoman because your baby slept for four hours straight. Of course there is so much to dream about, because having a baby is the most magical experience in the world, the pregnancy, the birth, the life afterwards, just all of it. Although not without its challenges still beautiful all the same.
So thats where I am at. When I look at these two I am at a place of contentment, but as any normal human I have those passing thoughts, I want more of this right here.
I know the best way to get more of what is right here is to keep on doing it. So, for now I will. I am glad to be at this place. Having children has definitely taught me to ‘keep going’ no matter what. It has given me an endurance I have ‘without child’ never experienced. So I am glad for that.
So far these two have been enjoying the early shows of spring, the warm sun and cool air. My mum bought them a trampoline as their old one broke so they have been having fun on that. Our lovely neighbour gave us their daughters three way swing and slide activity centre as she doesn’t use it anymore. The kids were so pleased with that. Their outdoor area looks like a park now. Lots of fun to be had. They have been enjoying that the last few weeks.
I bought them these gorgeous dressing up outfits from Asda for a birthday party they are going to in Arpil, and they love them and currently have been wearing them everyday. I have enjoyed having ‘dangerous’ and ‘scary’ pirates around my home this month.
Archie never fails to make me laugh. I never knew what it would be like to have a boy but already he keeps trying to purposefully make me laugh. Just the other day I laughed at him for being silly and trying to put his top on his head (I think somewhat like the footballers do) and so he kept on doing it in a bid to keep making me laugh. It really did make me laugh. His laugh is definitely infectious.
I wrote a blog post on Sophia a while back about how she was finding school difficult. I did start writing a follow up post but never got round to publishing it as I had so much going on. But I will say here that she is doing fantastically now and completely turned around. She is lucky to have a fantastic teacher who really cares for her wellbeing. After a meeting and a discussion about Sophia we both worked on building her self confidence and congratulating her more for the small things. We have seen such an improvement in her happiness both in and out of school so this has made me so very happy. It is not nice at all to see your child so sad.
Sophia is reading now, she had a bit of a rocky start and found it difficult. But has come on so well. Again she has a fantastic teacher and we have been doing a little bit here and there with her at home without putting any pressure on her. She read a book to me last night all by herself, it took a while but I didn’t need to help her. Compared to her reading the week before it just seemed to have come on so much.
I had tears in my eyes as she read the first page, the fact that she went back and read the sentence over after spelling out each word made me well up because like I said, just the week before she wasn’t able to go back and read the whole sentence.
Her little face too, she was ever so proud of herself and I never forget to say: ‘you must be so proud of yourself’. I do try and help her validate herself without her having to have the validation from me. All in my bid to try and help her have more confidence in herself rather then only feeling good when I compliment her. Hopefully some of my weird parenting ideas and ways are working.
Although it has been quite an adjustment for us (this whole school thing) what makes me the happiest mum in the world is to see her happy. I just want her to be happy and then I can relax and enjoy life. She really is my whole world and I can’t describe how proud she makes me. She is the best gift I have ever been given. My heart is full.